快要自由了！

啊！！！今天我终于交我的毕业论文了！虽然我知道我下个礼拜还有一个陈述，可是我还是觉得很开心。辛苦了几个月，我现在终于自由了。哈哈！

我相信大家都知道，在国大念书的第四年，我们需要做一个研究项目。所以这一年里我就在实验室里做实验。虽然我今年常常觉得很压力， 但我想今年会是我最难忘的一年。由于这是我最后一个学期，我要跟大家聊聊我在大学的生活。

我还记得因为我一个人来国大，所以我没有什么朋友。如果我有什么问题，我就要自己解决。除此之外，我刚来国大的时候完全不会说华语。我不但上中学时，没有学过华语，而且我不是来自一个中文教育背景的家庭。大家知道吗？马来西亚北部的华人通常会说福建话，南方的华人呢会说广东话。因为我爸爸是福建人，我妈妈是广东人，我都会说福建话和广东话。在马来西亚的时候我不觉得我需要学华语。所以，当我到了新加坡以后不太会跟其他来自马来西亚的学生沟通。这是因为他们比较喜欢说华语。不知不觉已经过了四年，我现在不但会说华语，而且会写汉字了！这可能是“新加坡化”吧！

作为一个化学的学生，我们从第一年就需要做试验了。这几张照片是在我大二时的候拍的














我开始的时候不太喜欢做试验因为我觉得做试验会很累。可是我现在越来越喜欢做试验和研究了。可能是因为我已经做四年的试验了。为了我的研究项目，我今年做了很多试验。所以我现在得到了这个“病”。哈哈。

























啊，说了那么多，我突然有一点舍不得 要毕业。虽然我过了这几个礼拜就要毕业了，我希望同学们会努力接受所有的挑战。祝大家好运了!

五首我最爱的歌曲

噢阿昌我不常听中文歌曲因为我不太懂它们的歌词。由于小时候爸爸让我听很多英文歌曲，所以我长大了也喜欢上英文歌曲。后来我是学中文以后才开始听中文歌的。

我最喜欢的华人歌手是王力宏。我觉得他是一个很有天份的音乐人。他不但会唱歌，他也会作词，也会演奏很多乐器。真的很有才华！

在此，让我推荐你五首我最爱的歌曲：

5．如果你听见我的歌。

虽然这首歌有十年的历史了，我很喜欢它的曲调。它给我一个很安详的感觉。

4．心。跳。

“你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳。你的温柔如此靠近带走我心跳。。 。”我还需要说什么呢？这首歌真的带走了我的心跳。

3．你不知道的事。

大家知道吗？王力宏最近执导了一部电影，名为 <《恋爱通告》。这首歌是这部电影的主题曲。我特别喜欢他弹钢琴的时候，很浪漫。

2．盖世英雄。

怎么说呢？这首歌是一首很独特的歌曲。虽然这是一首现代的歌，我们还可以听到民族乐器的演奏。真的很好听！

1．唯一

啊，力宏的最著名的歌。我相信所有女歌迷听到这首歌以后会因为太感动了而晕倒！哈哈。如果有人对我唱这首歌就好了！

还没找工作！糟糕了！

啊，时间过得真快，现在已经week10 了。不知不觉，过了这几个礼拜，我就会毕业了！我还记得，我刚来国大的时候，我自己想，“啊，四年的时间太长了，不知道几时才可以毕业呢。” 其实，四年的时间过得非常快。

上个星期四，老师问我有没有找工作的时候，我才发现， 我还没开始找工作呢！想到要找工做的问题，我突然不是很想毕业！哈哈。

大家会想，为什么我有这样的想法呢？我知道很多人要毕业的时候都会觉得很开心因为他们不需要上课，不需要做作业。 最重要的是，他们开始做工的时候可以。。。赚钱！哈哈！

我不知道为什么我没有这样的感觉。坦白说，我觉得学习的生活比较简单因为我们可以预测明年的计划。做工的时候呢，就要考量很多事情。有的时候，我们的理想不会由自己实现，而是需要配合上司，才能实现。而且做工的时候，如果你的工资不高，你就会觉得很压力因为你要付房租，还需要付自己的生活费。

虽然学生也需要生活费，我觉得学生的生活费会低一点儿。如果我们能够找到一分兼职工作，就可以自付的生活费。

大家有什么想法呢？会不会跟我一样？？

What's going on??

Extremely fun lab session today... For all the wrong reasons... =D
Expecting the normal hum-drum lab session today, I stepped into the lab with a bored face and a plastered-on-my-face sien look which I have practiced for every lab session... But... only a few minutes into start of the lab session and CRASH... sound of glass breaking... ;p What a start!

A few minutes later... CRASH... round bottom flask broke... not too long after another crash... a 250mL RBF dis time.... ANother few hours... another crash and the final crash occurred at 2pm or so... a water bath dis time. I cannot help but go HAHAHA... 5 breakages in a single measly 7 hour lab session. All of us were looking at our neighbours going "What the...??" "What's with today?" Not pointing fingers k... but erm... most of the stuffs were broken by the 2nd yrs. What to do? 1st round of Organic chemistry n Inorganic Chemistry lab ma. SO excited =p

FOr those who haven't been into lab session b4... breaking glassware is alwiz a bit of of an embarassment cos... the tinkle and crash of glass really echoes thru the entire lab... i.e... EVERYONE KNOWS... Lol. Next thing u know... ur TA will hurry over to check out what u broke. Won't be punished too much for it... but... paiseh la... Everyone looking at u... :p

Then I start to ask myself... Did I break something in the lab b4?? Erm... I seriously can't recall... Nothing major I guess... but today sure was fun... It was like... a party where u smash bottles and throw guitars at each other... WAKAKA...

1st time i come back from lab laughing...

I'm OUT! (too hyper d)
~sh@rkl!ng~

Reflections...

Well... I have been chased many times to update my blog... since it's like dead most of the time...

Very happy today =p... Dad came over to Spore today for a meeting @ Kranji tmrw... And of course, I got to see him for a few hours b4 nighttime completely overwhelmed the day... A few measly hours but I'm not complaining :) In fact, I don't recall him ever coming to Singapore for meetings when I wasn't studying here... So I've been wondering... Double purpose to a single trip? Of course, Mum takes the opportunity to transport as much food and supplies to me here as can be brought in a single trip... Look at my food supplies... haha.. It has increased Multiple folds :) Good for late night snacks on Tues when my meals are so erratic...

So much has changed in the past 2 years since I arrived here, a newbie, completely alone, and completely clueless as what the future held in store... Mind you, I'm still completely clueless abt the future... That is still to be seen... But... Somehow, I feel that I have changed... I'm not the me I used to be...

e.g

From the crazy girl who, in the eyes of her classmates, is quite sociable to this nerd who hides in her room doing lab reports every weekend (torture of all chem students, I bliv) NO LIFE!!!

From the girl who spoke not a single word of Mandarin to the 3/4 banana who tries to converse in Mandarin to the best of her abilities

From never ever missing meals to this lab rat who hides out at the org lab every Tues from 10am till 5pm w/out lunch or even a drop of water sometimes... Gastric getting worse cos of dis... super unhealthy

Yet... Some things never change... I am still as homesick as I used to be. I have a theory that all Cancerians are homely ppl and thus are very prone to be homesick... I am certainly a testament to that theory. I would've thought that after 2/3 years on my own out here... I would have gotten used to being away from home. And yet, U will find me running back home every opportunity I get. LOLz... I also would've thought that I will not have the urge of hiding my face in my pillow when I see my parents leaving after a weekend's visit. It is for this very reason that I cannot talk to my parents much on the phone... I feel an overwhelming sense of missing home and wanting to be there esp when things are not going well at home.

But still I tell myself to grow up... dismiss the feeling and place it in the back of my mind. But I alwiz question, will that part of me which misses home every go away? Will that part change? Am I too attached to home for my own good? Questions which are still unanswered...

Meanwhile the little joys from home which put a smile on my face no matter what...



Little Mag-NICIs which Dad buys for me everytime he visits... Cute things make me happy =)








Latestmonochromatic addition to my family of little collectibles... Thou shalt name him...

MagStripey?MagZebra? Any suggestions?

FREE!!! Year 2 over n done with?

AH!!! It's the end of exams and i'm finally FREE... as in FREE from exams, FREE from the endless lab reports and FREE from sitting in lectures... just for this academic year anyway:p

It's hard to believe that I have already spent 2 years in NUS and i'll be quickly entering my 3rd year soon... Time surely does move at warp speed when you aren't aware of it, doesn't it?

Yea well... so here are my reflections on the 2 years i have spent here :
1) Singapore is a fine... a fine fine country
A satirical song which I heard via my boss while i was working. When i told him that I was coming to Spore to study, he uttered this phrase and I can't help but to smile everytime I think/hear of it. To a certain extent the notion that u will get fined for every misdoing in Spore may not be accurate - I have jaywalked MANY times and mark my words... nothing has happened to me - YET... but u sure gotta admire them for their efficiency. Just a slight hint that there may b a flu outbreak and they're all out - guns blazing to prevent any occurrences in Spore... Imagine... Wanna go for exam in NUS? Get your temp screened 1st...

2) Loneliness = me = independence
If life in uni has really taught me anything, it is that I have to rely on me, myself and I. Safe to say that I don't really have a large circle of friends and even if I do, they're mainly hi-bye kind of friends. I do not let people understand me easily so I guess it's partly my fault that I cut myself off from people who I could potentially be friends with. I often tell myself that it is better for me to be alone - rather that stick with a group of people I don't feel comfortable with and later get that feeling that I relli dun fit in anywhere. I dunno if dat is true but well... if it is, loneliness does rather suck you into that hole of depression sometimes...

3) Uni = study, mug and nothing else?
Seniors often tell me... and by seniors I mean those post-grads who work in the lab... that uni is so much more than the education you obtain... it shapes your character and really makes you grow up. Well, I don't really agree with the shape your character part but I do agree it makes you grow up. For the most part, I recall that I was a very happy, friendly, crazy-hoppie kind of person when I was in school and for some reason or other, I feel that being in uni has made me lose that... But I have, however, learnt to cope with stress, to just keep pushing till I reach my target and to reach out for opportunities which are out there. Uni may not be like the working world, but it sure as heck makes u work hard... Lol...

4) Different people - different opinions
A definite weakness in my character is that I always believe I am right... and of course this is not the case. Nobody is a know it all (save Hermione in Harry Potter) and no two people will have the exact same opinion/view on things. For example, when i enrolled into the B.Sc course in NUS, I never thought, "Owh I'll be outta here in 3 years". It was always my goal to get into the honours programme (though I dunno if i'll be able to now...) but I have learnt that many other ppl don't have the same view. For most people, their goal is to get a degree and get the heck outta here... But to me, I would like to achieve the best I can from here to ensure I get a slight upper hand when working... I find that my views very often differ from my frens... Guess dis is what they say, "banyak orang, banyak ragam" - Lol... my Bahasa kinda sucks... sorry...

That's all for now... A long post from one who hasn't posted for 2 months+... Lol

AY2008/09 well over!

~sh@rkl!ng~ out

One Week After

A week ago, I was sitting in this chair urgently sifting through e-mails and SMS-es,
A week ago, I was folding programme booklets which sat in my lap,
A week ago, I was anxiously waiting for the moment which would define all our efforts as a team,
A week ago, The International Students' Night finally arrived on the 6th of February 2009.

Stubbornly insisting on attending my tutorial, I woke up at an early 7.45am to gobble down some bits of food before I headed off to class, loaded with materials for both my teams. Tutorial flew by before i knew it and there it was... time for the action to begin : the setup, the rehearsal and finally, the hour of performance...

As time creeped slowly towards our defining hour, I found myself nervously pacing the halls, muttering to myself, "This is it... This is IT!". So you may wonder... did it live up to expectations??

To be honest, there were slip-ups, blunders, mistakes(which I shall not mention) which occurred during the brief two hour period which defined us. Time flew by so swiftly as I ran up and down the halls, most probably making myself the most disliked person as I pounded on doors and ordered people around. I could not really remember a time when I stood at a spot for more than 5 mins. But as quickly as it had come, as quickly did it sweep past us...

Looking back at it now, I would say that we did put on a good show! For sure, there were the little technical mistakes which only the team would have noticed and there was the big blunder in the middle of the performance, but all in all I would say, it was A GOOD JOB - not perfect, but sufficient to leave an everlasting impression on the audience...

So all the sweat, tears and frustration, was it worth it? I couldn't really say right now, as the glory of it has not completely worn off yet but I would admit this : As much as I had considered quitting my job at the beginning, I am now proud to say that I have been a part of ISN'09 Organizing Commitee, perhaps not a major contributor, but a small part which helped make this event what it was...

Thank you guys! For all the support, encouragement and help lent to us... couldn't have done it w/out u!

Over n out,
sh@rkL!ng...
P/S : Sorry for the mysterious nature of the blog... wanted to compress all my feelings into one post... seems it is too long alredi and I can't quite make up my mind on my feelings :p